The survival of a massive heart attack is just a small part of the challenge I have found. When I say small…I really mean small. The emotional side of recovery is something that day to day levels of challenge can change much like the difference of ever wave in the ocean. There will be days when all is calm and life is nearly like winning the powerball mentally. Other days I have found is similar to that Kevin Costner movie “The Perfect Storm” when the boat is vertical versus the customary horizontal in the water.
Since Oct. 7 I have found myself on teaching disability and in many ways the waves have subsided for the most part. I have found however that even small waves can be tricky. What I have found in the last several months is the importance of finding something to plan for or get excited about to keep the mind active and hitting on all cylinders. For me I have found pleasure in planning the ins and outs of a new business idea. I have been working on web sites and business plans for three months and they are nearly complete. I have an appointment in Marion, Il. this Tuesday to present my business plan. Nervous all ready…but in a very positive way.
The physical side of things is difficult to say the least. Changing eating lifestyle from very good to incredible is a real bit_ _. My wife is fantastic in that area and I am trying to be nice with the adjustments, but that does not always happen when I have a erotic desire for a pepperoni pizza or something equally outside the rule box.